That's it. I've had it.

That's it. I've had it.
I've had being fat. Always trying to avoid my reflection in the mirror.Always avoiding buying clothing, cos I look disgusting. Always thinking I'm worthless, ugly. Because why should I be worthless? Just because I'm fat? I'm done with this.

I've decided to lose the last wretched 30 kg. I wanna go back to the way I was, before I gained all this disgusting fat.

So heres my story: In middle school, I was bullied because of my religion. So instead of talking about it, I decied to eat and eat myself fat. I then, became depressed, and stopped caring how I looked like. I stopped excersising. I stopped thinking I was beautiful.

The truth is, that EVERYONE IS BEAUTIFUL in their own way. Everyone is gonna hate something about their body-get over it.


So heres my plan:
I run 3 km everyday (if the weather is good) and on the weekends I do the abs video ( HipHop Abs workout videos).

Since I eat very healthy, I'm just gonna change the portion sizes. Since all diets fail in the end, and so does starving yourself. I'm just gonn have more fruits and veggies in my daily intake.

I want to lose this 30kg during this summer, so for next fall I'll be my old self.
I'd like to go back to a size 6 or 8. I mean I'd LOVE to be a size 0, but its too much work. I kinda like 6 or 8- cos theyre even numbers. ;)